don't be like the rest of them,darling

     I'm sure you all have things or know people that make you go bananas. Unfortunately, I always seem to attract these kinds of people or things. So here's a teeny tiny part of what makes me want to become Dexter's apprentice.

               

    1. Copycats: I guess that's what I hate the most. It really makes me wonder: is it so hard to think for yourself or be original for once in your life? I know it shouldn't bother me so much and I really try to move on without caring but sometimes I just can't take it. I don't like people who copy others and I never will.

    2. Fake people: Another thing I don't understand is how a person can be fake. I really don't. I know a lot of girls who seem to get along with other people and whenever they get the chance they gossip about every little thing and not only do they gossip but they are MEAN. You can gossip,nobody said you can't. But why be mean? Just so you put yourself under a better light?

    3. Bad teachers: Some teachers shouldn't be teachers at all. I hate to have a teacher who's not interested in our well-being. I don't know what kind of teachers you have,but mine are really not that good. They don't make me want to thrive, to become a better person. I even had a teacher who called me names or sometimes ignored me just because I was the only one who had the guts to speak up and tell her that she shouldn't treat students differently. I don't know if I accomplished something by that, I just couldn't stay in my seat and watch her be nice to others just because their mummies had money.

    4. Being judged by people who don't know me: I don't know what is it, maybe I have a bitchy face or something but I'm always the one being criticized. And it's always the people who don't know me at all that seem to think they have the right to discuss about every detail of my private life. The best part is when they give my boyfriend relationship advice even though they aren't capable of having a civilized discussion with someone.

     5. Stupid girls: They've got to be one of the most stressful things on the planet. I can't stand the fact that instead of trying to overcome the mediocrity that surrounds us,they go with the flow. Not only are they not interested in reading or learning more about what surrounds them, but they even laugh at those who do. If you read,you're a nerd. If you go out more than the rest, you're a bitch. If you don't want to listen to their small talk, you're anti-social and so on.

autumn inspiration

    Just the fact that I am writing this while drinking a cup of hot tea reminds me how much I like autumn. It's my favourite season by far. I even love the fact that school started because, to tell you the truth, I was getting kind of bored.

      I love the fact that I get to wear sweaters with everything: dresses, skirts, jeans. I just love it!

               
        I want to try and redecorate my room for the umpteenth time. So I've already planned a walk in the park with my sister to find nice leaves and other autumny things.

           
        Tea, tea, TEA! Autumn is the perfect season for drinking as much tea as you please.

          
        For me, autumn is the perfect season for creativity. Creativity in all its forms: decorating, writing, painting.

                                 
         My autumn song:

                       




         

speaking of happiness

    School has finally started and I couldn't be happier. Even if that means I have to get up at 6 and rush out of the house while trying to juggle my bag and a cup of coffee and still look decent. But at least I don't have to take the bus and squeeze between workers and old people who complain about everything.

                                 wearing H&M sweater and Pull&Bear skirt

     I've almost finished reading Anne Frank's diary and all I can say is: heartbreaking! Only the thought that she didn't get to accomplish all of her dreams, that she didn't even get the chance to experience a life not defined by her being a jew makes me realize how frail we all are and how much of our time is spent being afraid of things that don't even matter.

           “In spite of everything I still believe that people are really good at heart. I simply can’t build up my hopes on a foundation consisting of confusion, misery, and death. I see the world gradually being turned into a wilderness, I hear the ever approaching thunder, which will destroy us too, I can feel the sufferings of millions and yet, if I look up into the heavens, I think that it will all come right, that this cruelty too will end, and that peace and tranquility will return again.” 

                                                                                   "The Diary of a Young Girl"

     I've also finished the first 2 seasons of Suits and I loved every episode. Great,great show with awesome characters and smart lines. I especially like their clothes: I mean,who doesn't like a man in a suit or a woman dressed impeccably?

    
     I'm currently listening to this song :

                                                                          
              

Currently inspired by:

                                                 everyone loves nature

       " This is one more piece of advice I have for you: don’t get impatient. Even if things are so tangled up you can’t do anything, don’t get desperate or blow a fuse and start yanking on one particular thread before it’s ready to come undone. You have to figure it’s going to be a long process and that you’ll work on things slowly, one at a time."

                                                     'Norwegian Wood', Haruki Murakami

                               

                                     

laziness is bliss

   September isn't a good month for studying! Neither I nor my sister were in the mood for studying. We stood in bed with the books wide open in front of us and with our minds wandering for hours. I don't know why. Maybe it's the weather, maybe the laziness that describes both of us perfectly or maybe the fact that we were both in the same room. We talked about everything except what we were supposed to be reading.

                                wearing H&M sweater and thrifted shorts

    So if you ever catch me complaining about not having enough time for studying, just remind me how I procrastinated today and I'll shut up.

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             I am now listening to :

                                                        

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     I'm sorry for the absence, I had a very rough time. I've realized once again what a big sucker I am. I can't stand being wrong about people and what happened recently only made me see that I often am. I don't want to be the kind of person that doesn't trust anyone and can't put her life in the hands of someone. But I think I need to be. I need to learn to let go and take care of myself because unfortunately almost nobody else will. So, from now on, I'll try to be more preoccupied by my own person and let the others make their own mistakes and I won't be upset anymore when I hear false things about myself being said. Because everyone can think whatever they want, I'm never going to please all of them.

                              
      Today is a sad day for me.I feel it in my body, I feel it in my mind, I even feel it in the air. But I'll cherish it because the road can only be upwards from here. In the future, I'll look back and I'll know this is where it all started. My struggle to become a better person, one who deserves to live life to the fullest and who doesn't regret a thing.

   I hope I didn't make you angry or upset you by writing this, I just felt the need to do so.

                         Love,
                               K.